mental block.

what is it about her? this mental block that she has no fucking clue how wrong she is? i don't know.

my mother.
oh, my mother.

she's been brainwashed.

i have no idea how it happened either because i've known her since she birthed me. does she just want to feel as though she always has the answer? every answer in one book? imagine that. every question you have ever had is clear cut and dry and in a portable book. i imagine that would feel nice. comforting. i can see why she holds onto it so tightly.

but to her, people fighting for their rights is the same thing as infringing upon hers.

seems to be there is a whole lot of "othering" going on here. the majority pushing a minority group away, saying “those people over there who do these things that I would never do,” instead of embracing the differences and focusing on the things that connect us each as humans.

i don't know much of anything, but i do know this: physical, verbal, emotional, and spiritual violence against another person silences them. i also know that sometimes people are silenced just because the person in charge of the microphone never hands it over. they filibuster the shit out of their privilege.

what causes one person to silence another? the privileged person in me says the fear of losing something, the fear of my privileges leaving because the status of owning the upper hand disappears if everyone has it. the minority in me says the same thing in a defeatist voice.

i guess it must be true if my white/middle class and queer/woman insides are in agreement.

theme: silencing comes from the majority's fear of losing control or bringing themselves “down” a level if they choose to treat others as they would like to be treated.

wait.
that last part sounds familiar.

ten commandments, anyone?
bueller?
bueller?

i wonder if she knows that moving past ignorance and towards tolerance is a christian mandate. i also wonder if it would make any bit of difference to her.

it's scary when people can't see outside of themselves. it's some scary shit, man.